This isn't the first time, won't be the last time - 911

Happy Chinese New Year!!!
Hope all of you have a great time visiting, eating, laughing and very importantly accepting ang pows! (With the exception of Irene whose job now is to GIVE ang pows.)

So last night Jason whizzed me off to watch 'Changeling' @ GWC.
I really should have watch a lighter show instead. Not that the story or the acting is bad but it is a little draggy.
Angelina Jolie did a good job with her very emotional acting skills but seriously, that doesn't seem like a pretty good thing with CNY. It doesn't rub in me,not in late hours especially.
True story,though.
Denial for hope. Hope for living. Guess sometimes life has to work this way.

So it was weird alright. I started talking but wished I hadn't. Cos' the moment I opened my mouth, I almost wanna start a verbal fight in the car. He kept quiet and I bit my tongue in regret.

We watched the movie in a few words. Almost wanna slump over to his arms but restrained so. Didn't talk much on the way back.
All is well till he gave me a light friendly hug at my door steps.
Funny that I wasn't feeling sad but somehow, that light hug squeezed my tears out and I started crying again.
Sigh. - Roll eyes -

But it's all good. At least I know I still care.
I miss Jason so much. I so wish that he could make it right for me this time round. But I am afraid with too much haste, it might still end up the same for me again.

Oh the other hand, I am completely disgusted with someone else. COMPLETELY DISGUSTED!
Period.

Can't wait to see the little cousins (maternal) tonight.